I learned this from Pixi's father:
If people see God and had proof he was always watching, what would people act like?
People would act perfect. In a sense, they would be like puppets on a string. These people would never have a chance to act the way they truly are.
God wants to see us for who we really are. That's what this life is about for God. To see who we really are.
That's why he gave us free will. So we can truly show him we love him through faith.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Greedy
One thing you must know about me, is that I am greedy. It's unconcious until i'm shamed into realizing it, but I am selfish. And greedy.
We were taking the dogs to get their shots. We had to walk the four miles home with the dogs, and at first I was pissed.
I was not even supposed to be at home today, but I still had to go and help. Five people to help with three dogs? I do not think so!
Fuming, I went with them, taking the oppurtunity to take my dog, Sarah, on a walk. I got some Jesus time in, felt better talking to him, and went back.
We got a our income taxes a little bit ago, and we have been living off of them due to my father's checks being syphined by the government for our debt. Our house is kind of being forclosed on, and we really dont know what's going to happen in the next few months. It's kind of scary, but im not worried. Whatever happens, the Lord will provide and show favor. I definately believe that. This too, shall pass :)
Well, back to the greed.
I had a talk with my mom about just moving out of the house now while we have the money to put down a down payment and for bills. Get going while we're ahead instead of just letting the money drindle until there's nothing to show for and and we are being forced out of our house.
The safe route.
Well, since im human and a teenager, we needed to go to southside to go pick out a few things. Low and behold, I acted like a 5 year old and aked for everything that I saw. Well, not exactly, but my mom did bye me a lot things. I'm always telling them to watch how much money they spend stuff on, and yet here I am, spending more than they are! I felt so terrible . . . I mean, I am greatful for the things I have, but when I'm shopping I get a high off getting things. Looking financially stable and able to other people. . . it's sad really.
Another bad thing is that, really, the only time me and my mom spend time together or have bonding time is DURING shopping. When we're buying things. Other than that, we aren't that close. It's sad, but true. But, our interests are so different, it's the only thing we CAN do. and yet, even then, it should not be allowed.
Either way, there is no excuse. I have been greedy with the money, with the food, and with my use of time. It's something I need to work on(:
"You can never get what you want when you don't fully appreciate what you already have" (:
We were taking the dogs to get their shots. We had to walk the four miles home with the dogs, and at first I was pissed.
I was not even supposed to be at home today, but I still had to go and help. Five people to help with three dogs? I do not think so!
Fuming, I went with them, taking the oppurtunity to take my dog, Sarah, on a walk. I got some Jesus time in, felt better talking to him, and went back.
We got a our income taxes a little bit ago, and we have been living off of them due to my father's checks being syphined by the government for our debt. Our house is kind of being forclosed on, and we really dont know what's going to happen in the next few months. It's kind of scary, but im not worried. Whatever happens, the Lord will provide and show favor. I definately believe that. This too, shall pass :)
Well, back to the greed.
I had a talk with my mom about just moving out of the house now while we have the money to put down a down payment and for bills. Get going while we're ahead instead of just letting the money drindle until there's nothing to show for and and we are being forced out of our house.
The safe route.
Well, since im human and a teenager, we needed to go to southside to go pick out a few things. Low and behold, I acted like a 5 year old and aked for everything that I saw. Well, not exactly, but my mom did bye me a lot things. I'm always telling them to watch how much money they spend stuff on, and yet here I am, spending more than they are! I felt so terrible . . . I mean, I am greatful for the things I have, but when I'm shopping I get a high off getting things. Looking financially stable and able to other people. . . it's sad really.
Another bad thing is that, really, the only time me and my mom spend time together or have bonding time is DURING shopping. When we're buying things. Other than that, we aren't that close. It's sad, but true. But, our interests are so different, it's the only thing we CAN do. and yet, even then, it should not be allowed.
Either way, there is no excuse. I have been greedy with the money, with the food, and with my use of time. It's something I need to work on(:
"You can never get what you want when you don't fully appreciate what you already have" (:
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Twinkle twinkle little star
I've been weird lately..... and I know why. My school time has been struggling and I know why it is, too. I've been setting my own self and my schooling above God
Lovely, right?
I had a nice talk with Eric last night. I was feeling terrible, all I was doing was eating and watching my computer. I had no will to do homework, or house work, or anything for that matter. Even though I didn't want to do that, even the thing that I was doing didn't seem to fufill what I needed. I don't know what I needed....
Well, randomly, Eric called me. He was all normal and friendly and honestly wanting to know how I was.I just said " okay " and he knew something was up. I told him how I've been feeling about things, how I've been controlling my eating, if I even eat. He encouraged me to really get some alone time with God. Turn off the music, put up the ownit365 bible and go outside, look up at the stars ( because he knows how I love to do that ) and talk with God. Ive noticed that Eric always does this. When I'm at my lowest, or I'm about to do something bad, Eric calls or.texts or something. I don't know if its the holy spirit, or something, but he always knows. If it is the holy spirit telling him, I thank god because the lord has tried to intervene almost every time I'm about to screw up.
So anywho, I seem to put way too much pressure on myself to perfect evrything and be GOOD at everything. But by doing that, I have been messing everything up. Like running in quick sand. That's what it feels like a lot. But, there's the Lord daddio just holding out a stick to pull me out of my own ignorance.
" I wish I was more than a man,
have you ever felt that way
And if I were to tell you the truth
I'm afraid id have to say
that after all ive done and failed to do,
I feel less than I was meant to be.
And what if I could fix myself, maybe then I could get free
I could try to be somebody else, who's much better off than me
But I need to remember this :
when I'm at my weakness I can clearly see
He makes the lame walk and the dumb talk
He opened blinded eyes to see
That the sun rises on his time,
He knows our deepest desperate need
The world waits while his heart aches
To realize the dream
I wonder what life would be like If we let Jesus live through you and me "
-Big Daddy Weave
Lovely, right?
I had a nice talk with Eric last night. I was feeling terrible, all I was doing was eating and watching my computer. I had no will to do homework, or house work, or anything for that matter. Even though I didn't want to do that, even the thing that I was doing didn't seem to fufill what I needed. I don't know what I needed....
Well, randomly, Eric called me. He was all normal and friendly and honestly wanting to know how I was.I just said " okay " and he knew something was up. I told him how I've been feeling about things, how I've been controlling my eating, if I even eat. He encouraged me to really get some alone time with God. Turn off the music, put up the ownit365 bible and go outside, look up at the stars ( because he knows how I love to do that ) and talk with God. Ive noticed that Eric always does this. When I'm at my lowest, or I'm about to do something bad, Eric calls or.texts or something. I don't know if its the holy spirit, or something, but he always knows. If it is the holy spirit telling him, I thank god because the lord has tried to intervene almost every time I'm about to screw up.
So anywho, I seem to put way too much pressure on myself to perfect evrything and be GOOD at everything. But by doing that, I have been messing everything up. Like running in quick sand. That's what it feels like a lot. But, there's the Lord daddio just holding out a stick to pull me out of my own ignorance.
" I wish I was more than a man,
have you ever felt that way
And if I were to tell you the truth
I'm afraid id have to say
that after all ive done and failed to do,
I feel less than I was meant to be.
And what if I could fix myself, maybe then I could get free
I could try to be somebody else, who's much better off than me
But I need to remember this :
when I'm at my weakness I can clearly see
He makes the lame walk and the dumb talk
He opened blinded eyes to see
That the sun rises on his time,
He knows our deepest desperate need
The world waits while his heart aches
To realize the dream
I wonder what life would be like If we let Jesus live through you and me "
-Big Daddy Weave
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Libre!
I am free! I feel so good! This Wednesday, a new guy named Andre gave his testimony and his underlying point of it all is that you need to let go of what you don't need or is not of the lord. Then you are letting go of the control of things and allowing the lord to work. He knows what you can become, what he wills for you. In jeremiah 29:11, the bible says, " for I know the thoughts I have towards you. A hope of a future..." that makes me so happy because he's right! Wednesday night I asked the lord to show me the things in my life that I need to let go and I was shocked, but understood what he told me. He told me the LEDA( Princeton thing) and Trey. At first I thought I was making it up or something, but the more I thought about it, he was right. It was hurting me, hindering my spirit. Well, I trusted him, thinking that if he's asking me to do this, he must have something way better in store for me. I'm believing he does!
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Ya know, sometimes its really hard to love that girl....
When you feel like you are having trouble showing love to someone who has wronged you, remember that the Lord still loves you even after all you have done to him so if he can still love you after that, then the least you can do is show love to those who have hurt you.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)